they are a changing

well i havent written any anti me posts in a long while...
and thats partly becuase of feeling..or the general lack of it
yes past couple of months..and i do mean months..i havent had any emotional experiences..not really anyway...i hoped that during this time in my life i would have things going for me..but my heart and my head has jus konked off..and bugger me if i didn't do anything about it

and now when i slowly re-enter the social idiocies society asks me to face in coll i wonder if i'm still the same guy..tho i may not have been emote-ing
or feeling something...i have had many things happen to me (mostly things i did to myself)this summer...largly dull and pointless..
i have inflicted myslef through a lot...i tested myself..tho i hate to admit it..i can be alone...i can take care of myself..i can do a lot...jus let me do it...
but what i can do and what i want to do..and what my parents want me to do..seems to be a large conflict of interest..
and the past few nights ..under the full moon...i sat on my balcony listening to music..and asking myself some questions ....
i doubt i'll ever be the same...i suddenly feel angry..little sad.. a little not me..
but maybe this is a new me...my skin getting replaced..im not quite sure..but i do know one thing..liverpool is winning...
and in my future...and as well as i know me...i think i might jus find some answers....

vague and pointless...but it had to be done