roll away in the dew..it will ring my fire..and lose you weight

as i walked down the very uncertain roads of chennai...
i felt everything go by..it was beautiful..
the sky bloomed and the extreme corner of this road i saw everything pass by..the sound of old cars..
the radio playing at the stall be hind me..it was early in the morning..
so there it was..the vegetable i had been looking for...
i walked towards my holy vegetable...but as it had tp be ...crowds of funny men and funny women decided to rush past in a furry...it was the immaculate description of chennais great and mind boggling vegetable markets..
a touch of Grey kinna suits u anyway...thats all i had to say..
i will get by..
that song is so good..i don't why ppl listen to shit..common...the grateful dead jus makes u sway...
sorry im listening o that song so....
yes back to vegetable markets..yeah well these vegetable markets are filled with fish...im not lying...
u can find fish ,chicken.mutton and obviously beef and other non wild animals..domesticated to death..quite litrelly..
the magnolias grew on the river side...well don't imagine the kuom..bum...thing like the olden days..
damn nobody shares my vision...and stupid d.n.a is dead...all of u are bums..cant think like i do..waste ..naiya kutty's
why is no one retro they asked...me..i said who want st o living in the past...it s the past ..the future..is like the next best thing (yeah that was funny)
the vegetable markets...
it was filled with he aromas of old ladies..with sleepless breath and oddly enough very well worked out malnutritional men...
the aroma of the fish was quite over powering..me being mallu...how does it matter...
u know mallus and bengalis are so similar..we are nearly the same race,,we jus speak different languages many letters apart..
the friend of the devil i s a friend of mine..
red people shake hands...the moon come out..we swim to it...
the car is far awy...it looks like it s coming close.r..and the funny thing is that it s too fast to escape it...
i can imagine my self ..sitting on the comp swaying to the music..and typing this article is tht wired or the "double mirrored on opposite sides."
effect...alright im getting like..totally..and omg..i hate them dumb chicks...
cant stand them..and ones who awww for nothing..u should all be hung.
and the ones who are like.. yaeh ..someday...
:)
got to go luv...catch ya later..
mwah..my blog..jueey....why are the u only one..
im too nice.

stort of someone elses life :this part is called does it matter

as the night set in .ever so slowly...i couldnt help but feel suffocated..the still of the night really made wanna breathe again
freash.
it was dark and cold night...i walked down..the flight of stairs in the abandoned building..not really abandoned it had been my home for more than a year now...a year is it..lost track of time....
nothing worked..it was a hell hole...
in the past so many months ive learnt many things...
how to steal ..how to kill and most importantly how not to feel any more...
i strolled along the streets..the night was turning colder and my heart was racing jus tht much faster...
there was this inexplicable lull of immaculate noise...
it was leading to something..something big...

damn it

damn it damn it damn it
im so sorry blog happy belated birthday..
may 26th..damn so sorry i forgot

buga boo

as my holidays moves along with painful ease..
its finally hit me..and its hit me good..i need to get into college..yes ive already got manipal..but somehow i still feel incomplete ,like i could have done more...
so loyola results await..xaviers yet to fill..time passes with simplicity..yet painfully
not as painfull as hitting a brick wall whilst travelling at break neck speeds
painfull as it would be if your back itches and you couldnt reach it.not painful as if someone's heart to be broken.. its painful as in u just missed to 1 o clock train by a minute
..everything is just drifting ,unconciously with great effort avoiding the cacophony of my thoughts..
its jus moving along

i will remember these early days of june 2007 not for the beautiful breeze..or the aerosmith concert or my trip to bangalore..ill remember this early days of june 2007 for the time it took..

for the time it took..
the time it took...
time...
buggga boooooooo! :D today i pray for the best..the joys of others and their happinesses. heartbreaks of others..whilst my own uncompromising future being coldly calculated by the hands of those whom i cannot see..

sometime eh!!

as my association with my well known habbit of nothingness grows, i have only a few things left on my mind..my new found old talent of doing nothing.
and the hope that i get in to a st.xaviers..blimmey their course is awesome
i hope lfc win the champions league for the 6th time..that would really make me happy

anyway..as i shake the dust of my blog..long time..and this year the frequency hasnt been all that high but the quality of writing has improved i think. leaving all that aside..ive had plenty of time to dream ,to travel to experiment..but as it had to be, chennai is nothing but a pan of really hot smouldering people with insufferable case of "oh kaduvulai im dying" and and even more annoying auto drivers..things couldnt realy get more outgoing..
so here it is i travel ...and the hopes that someday these travels will be real and not just in my head.i dream .i listen to good music.
i dream
is that so wrong..to want to go to amsterdam take in sights..the people..and lots of other things.. :D but its something i always wanted ..even before the knowing..(everybody knows the knowing :D) with the fine flowers and women and the drugs...the rivers, the boats, the architecture...the hope that in Europe my dreams ..yes my dreams...that a fantasy will happen..somethings so unlikely that it can only take place in your head..
so as i listen to my collection of allman brothers band..and my dream to someday make it to amsetrdam..listen to jazz..have a bit of drink...bit of smoke..a bit of beauty..
and the fine taste of my dreams in my mouth..
i think ill be eaternly happy..eternly...
dreams huh!! dont we all ..

the million dollar question

<<<<<<<?>>>>>>>
the story of the great Question mark
characters :
? - the great Question mark
<<< - greater arrow gaurds
>>> - lesser arrow gaurds
....... - the dot people


<<<<<<<<?>>>>>>>>>
the great Question mark
surrounded by the Arrow Guards

see the thing about the gr8 Question mark..was he was a BIG question himself quite literally
nobody quite new what he was doing there in fact his staggering curved presence was quite err lets just say staggering..
and those Arrow Guards were quite amused
in fact the gr8 Question mark never questioned the Arrow Guards on why they were amused.

for quite frankly he was question him self.so he couldn't get the really staggering picture..so what rite did he have to question the arrows that kept the question mark in fact a question and not an answer..in essence was it possible that the question mark was questioning his own questionability..his own authority??


most of the "...."people
didn't no what to to say to the arrow head cos they were always left hanging in fact the questions were thrown at the giant question mark with the help of arrows

honestly the gr8 Question mark didn't know the answers and left the dots quite like a bunch of silly marks on piece of paper just like this -> .................
nobody wanted to do what the gr8 Question mark did
for every time some questioned why he was there ,,he would claim..i dunno..i'm just an arrow and old arrow sitting on a dot..the accumulation of questions wore him down..and hence he became a question mark
the aging arrow without answers led to its own unanswered destruction ultimately forcing the next poor arrow to take over
the problem was.why did the question mark become so gr8
the answer was quite simple really..
HE DIDN'T KNOW THE ANSWERS

the questions how ever were quite reasonable
like for what joy did question marks exist ??

(contd of the previous..question..in fact scientists many years latter found out why the question mark exist .why it had become so gr8.the scientists how ever were displeased with their observations .forever destested the question mark..only to find out later that if they did there would be a great anarchy in the dot kingdom..ultimately they had to make their peace)


in fact what was noticed was..that the question mark was a glory hunter always stood at the back of the line but curiously enough he hogged all the credit..no wonder the question mark became the gr8 Question mark...

thank you for reading this questionable posts and its darkest motives..you will be fore ever blessed if ud comment on it :P..
this unintelligent and obscure peice of work was created when a friend of mine and me were having a lousy conversation..so i had to make up this story

random musings..there is a warning

well that was me at around 4 am..i took the pic put it on the post..and went on to stay up till 5 am.weird night it was
***warning i have mentioned random things here..***
its a far cry from sanity my life.. these past few days..
and in my blog is where i confess..that i love it..i have contemplated saving the world
becoming a nice yellow lemon(to jump into a giant ocean of gin and tonic. only later figure out there isn't a ocean that big enough..so i settled for pretending to be a lemon jumping in and out of my apartments swimming pool)

i have done some wild and crazy things like contemplate getting into college..my future(do i have one)

u know and all the other stuff a school pass out KID/TEEN AGER/NEARLY A MAN would do. like start a blog with one of his aquarinest friends(ya candy u know what i'm talking about)
b sides all that..i tickled my self yesterday saying the word buzzz..kavya (another aquarian..u see i have a liking towars us aquarians..mostly because i am one )would know about that.
i told a girl that its a good time to satisfy her boyfriend (poor ne,sorry about that)
i told another girl that a guy liked her...knowing fully well that she probably didn't like him the same way

all in all bloggy(my blog for the readers) dearest i've bin doing nothing productive
i've just bin dazzling hero of political incorrectness.
i love top gear.(random yes..but they are brilliant)
i've bin up for the past 5 days odd ...till correctly about 5 am
listening to music..like sly and the family stone.thinking of ways to save the world..while conveniently talking to people over the internet..i have realized that my moms selfish reason to take me to kerala may not be all that bad...

i don't know whats happening .but i have feeling that im not in control of it,it being everything..frankly i like not being in control of anything(not in leadership or football sorta off a way) but in life...
i just like keep those sails open catch the free breeze and never get to the point.*(in anything.you will notice as u read along)

hehe tariq tomme once that i was born to screw up ..and i used to stick out my tounge every time (just ask anyone who has chatted with me on yahoo) but u know something
in my life i know how i want the journey to be..i just have no clue were the bloody hell the destination is..u know ppl like sonali would understand that..she KNEW me well :D

but know i dont know..
im back to being detached not really close to anyone..well there is sagar some mite say(MITE SAY)..but dunno he just isnt a girl..

guys are the best...trust me ..to hang around have good time..but i seem to have a cut off..there is only so much i cant do...i love being around guys..im a total bloke that way(the music we make,thanks arun..the jokes we crack..thanks everyone.the insane amounts of time we spent doing nothing.again thanks everyone)..

girls just seem to be girls wen i hang around them they ask me silly things like how their hair is?? and if the new nail polish is nice??(its okay priya u can keep on asking me ill be nice to you unless i really dont like it)..frankly in all those matters i am as useless as the wall ur leaning against wen ur doing nothing..but then again that same wall is giving u support..so basically im as useless as u wen ur doing nothing but standing on that wall
anyway..were was i..ya guys..i have awesome fun playing football..frankly it enough to keep me satisfied..i wouldn't need anything more emotionally..but this is a long post and i intend to make it longer..
well so why cant i get close to a guy..partly because
a)he is a guy..he doesnt have girl parts..like ovaries,breasts,and other such beautiful creations(equally bad wen they decide turn against you) but at the same time..i dont like hanging around em now why is that...answer
cos they have girl parts like ovaries,breasts,and other such beautiful creations(equally awesome wen they decide to "turn on" you)hehe get the pun
i basically wrote this whole post to put tht pun in :D
well its 3 23 am(after editing and adding things)..it really isnt my fault i get mad around this time..frankly ive bin geting quite a wee bit mad lately
oh i would also like to mention in this post.i got a new harp.its awesome..may the heavens bless us all. i DHANANJA BLESS YOU ALL TO BLESS YOURSELVES LONG LIVE LIVERPOOL FC AND SATANISM,AND FEMALE BODY PARTS..MEN IN GENERAL.MUSIC my saviour.BRITISH HUMOR.LITTLE TINY DROPS OF SALIVA AND THE NUMBER 8.THE WORD BUZZ.LIFE IS A JUEEY!.BLOGGING.AGEING.MOVIES.BOOKS.THE SUPREME COURT.OUR LOUSY INDIAN TEAM(i hope they live).GOOD FRIENDS.GOOD TIMES.
PS.this is the first time im mentioning people so explictily in my blog.like in some of my friends posts..these arnt the ppl i love or any jazz like tht..these are the ppl.i jus happened to be talkin to these past days...
sahil if u read this..man..its about time
DAMN I NEED TO GET OUT MORE..ANYBODY WANNA GO FOR A MOVIE OR A PLAY.OR FOR DINNER???

TO "C" OR NOT TO "C"

some thing me and candy are trying out..its there in the links section(of my blog)...please do check it out...
u wont be disappointed
else use the following link

here


this is the intro for the above link
Well..now that our blog is somewhat up and some what running..
I think we should introduce ourselves and the blog
well the blog is 2 part owned.
Part 1 Consists of Candy(aka Ashwin Candade)
Part 2 Consists of Dman(aka Dhananjai Hari)
Its our creative common..It is here were we share our passion for movies and film making
but this is more or less our "critic" blog.. in a manner of speaking.
It is here were we write our reviews to the movie we all love to hate..and hate to love..or plan and simply hate/love.
It is here were we recomend the movie you should "c" and maybe not "c"(a nice modification of hamlet don't you think ;)

If there are any movies you want us to review please leave us a message and we shall respond A.S.A.P.
With love
candy and dman
ps..please feel free to comment and share your opinions on the movie..
also maintain sanity dignity and respect.it is a public forum sort of

some thing i did for fun..a gift to my blog
:D
my love

confessions of a bloggin shadow...!!

(<-woohoo thts me dancing away to glory)












A LITTLE SOMETHING ABOUT ME :- (A PAGE IN MY LIFE..FOR THAT U SHOULD KNOW WHO I AM)well im a shadow ..kinna 2-d yeah yeah dont laugh u dont realise how hard it is to be skinny and and flat..
well i wlda done this at churrch but well tht bum dhananjai wld be there as welll
i mean whats rong with tht guy...quite litrelly all he does is follow me around all day...i mean he starts were i end..u realy cant make out the difference between my end and his beginning.wat a bum he is...i think he quite attached to me... i dont blame him ..i mean look at me..im the cOOLest blaCk thing around..
well diary this is wat i have to confess..
im starting to get annoyed with mr.dhananjai...all he ever does is scream life is a jueey...
even if he is in a dessert he'd be singing it frm the tallest branch of the tallest tree...im kinna getting annoyed...moreover he's always listenin to good music and stuff...seriously cld he be more lame...i mean were is all the hip hop and pop and all tht other rubbish stufff...
he is always thinkin abt music..and i mean his board exams are in a couple days and he doesnt even bother to sit down and study...i mean rite now he is sitting on front of this giant light giving screeen makin silly noices on some tappin apparatus...of which i have not had the pleasure to meet...he always does tht leaves me out of conversations....he jus looks at me some times and realises tht ahh this is an opportunity to be mean..and jus goes and stands under some treee..
i dont like it...well rite now dear diary i have to go there is some other shadow in this room and he doesnt like me to much..askin me to bugger off...aye..ill be back..my black heart yearns to tell him off

salty water blues!!

(salty water blues.1.)
(->thts the money we had .2. i took the foto yummy isnt it)











its lovely 7 friends guys..my favourite type of friends...jus roaming arnd eatin havin a good time..no money jus salty water blues


butterflies sailed on the breeze
sounds of colour ate me alive
reds were afray indigo lapsed
see the sound of salty water blues

found the winds to blow
my soul was bleeding out
i watched in the afterglow
virgin sands..
sing 'em salty water blues

the sky moved sideways
everything else seemed to die away
all was left was shades of Grey
eyay

its the salty water blues..
no hues jus salty water blues
restless joes
no mindless blows
'em salty water blues

7cats pranced on the beach
pissing out gold and indigo hues
nuts and italian peach
sing 'em salty water blues
..memories etched eh!!

Its ok video

junk yard groove ppl..this is one really cool band..and they are indian thts the best part..they are right up there with parikrama and moksha(may leon's soul rest in peace)..wow

ig noble!!

The Ig Nobel Prizes are a parody of the Nobel Prizes for ten achievements that "first make people laugh, and then make them think."
The name is a play on the word "ignoble" and the name "Nobel" after Alfred Nobel. The official pronunciation used during the ceremony is "ig no-BELL" (IPA: ɪg nəʊ bɛl) it is not pronounced like the word "ig-noble" (ig-NOH-buhl, IPA: /ɪgˈnoʊbəl/) — but this distinction eludes many people.
..this is brilliant stuff..some of my favourite awards are..
(dont bother readin the names the reason for the award is right after their names)

Ornithology: Ivan R. Schwab, of the University of California Davis, and the late Philip R.A. May of the University of California Los Angeles, for exploring and explaining why woodpeckers don't get headaches.

Medicine: Francis M. Fesmire of the University of Tennessee College of Medicine, for his medical case report "Termination of Intractable Hiccups with Digital Rectal Massage"; and Majed Odeh, Harry Bassan, and Arie Oliven of Bnai Zion Medical Center, Haifa, Israel, for their subsequent medical case report also titled "Termination of Intractable Hiccups with Digital Rectal Massage."


Literature: Daniel Oppenheimer of Princeton University for his report "Consequences of Erudite Vernacular Utilized Irrespective of Necessity: Problems with Using Long Words Needlessly."

Acoustics: D. Lynn Halpern of Harvard Vanguard Medical Associates, and Brandeis University, and Northwestern University, Randolph Blake of Vanderbilt University and Northwestern University and James Hillenbrand of Western Michigan University and Northwestern University for conducting experiments to learn why people dislike the sound of fingernails scraping on a blackboard.

Economics - Presented to Gauri Nanda of the Massachusetts Institute of Technology, for inventing an alarm clock that runs away and hides, repeatedly, thus ensuring that people DO get out of bed, and thus theoretically adding many productive hours to the workday.

Peace - Presented to Daisuke Inoue of Hyogo Prefecture, Japan, for inventing karaoke, thereby providing an entirely new way for people to learn to tolerate each other.

Economics - Presented to The Vatican, for outsourcing prayers to India.

Literature - Presented to The American Nudist Research Library of Kissimmee, Florida, for preserving nudist history so that everyone can see it.

Medicine - Presented jointly to Steven Stack of Wayne State University, Detroit, Michigan, and James Gundlach of Auburn University, Auburn, Alabama, for their published report "The Effect of Country Music on Suicide."

Peace - Presented to Lal Bihari, of Uttar Pradesh, India, for a triple accomplishment: First, for leading an active life even though he has been declared legally dead; second, for waging a lively posthumous campaign against bureaucratic inertia and greedy relatives; and third, for creating the Association of Dead People. Lal Bihari overcame the handicap of being dead, and managed to obtain a passport from the Indian government so that he could travel to Harvard to accept his Prize. However, the U.S. government refused to allow him into the country. His friend Madhu Kapoor therefore came to the Ig Nobel Ceremony and accepted the Prize on behalf of Lal Bihari. Several weeks later, the Prize was presented to Lal Bihari himself in a special ceremony in India.


Medicine - Presented to Chris McManus of University College London, for his excruciatingly balanced report, "Scrotal Asymmetry in Man and in Ancient Sculpture."

Physics - Presented to Arnd Leike of the University of Munich, for demonstrating that beer froth obeys the Mathematical Law of Exponential Decay.


Public Health - Presented to Chittaranjan Andrade and B.S. Srihari of the National Institute of Mental Health and Neurosciences, Bangalore, India, for their probing medical discovery that nose picking is a common activity among adolescents.

Astrophysics - Presented to Dr. Jack Van Impe and Rexella Van Impe of Jack Van Impe Ministries, Rochester Hills, Michigan, for their discovery that black holes fulfill all the technical requirements for the location of Hell.

Literature - Presented to John Richards of Boston, England, founder of The Apostrophe Protection Society, for his efforts to protect, promote, and defend the differences between the plural and the possessive.

Psychology - Presented to Lawrence W. Sherman of Miami University, Ohio, for his influential research report "An Ecological Study of Glee in Small Groups of Preschool children

Peace - Presented to The British Royal Navy, for ordering its sailors to stop using live cannon shells, and to instead just shout "Bang!"

Computer Science - Presented to Chris Niswander of Tucson, Arizona, for inventing PawSense, software that detects when a cat is walking across your computer keyboard.

Literature - Presented to the British Standards Institution for its six-page specification (BS 6008) of the proper way to make a cup of tea.

Safety Engineering - Presented to Troy Hurtubise, of North Bay, Ontario, for developing and personally testing a suit of armor that is impervious to grizzly bears.

Peace - Presented to Harold Hillman of the University of Surrey, England, for his report "The Possible Pain Experienced During Execution by Different Methods."

Medicine - Presented to James Johnston of R.J. Reynolds, Joseph Taddeo of U.S. Tobacco, Andrew Tisch of Lorillard, William Campbell of Philip Morris, Edward A. Horrigan of Liggett Group, Donald S. Johnston of American Tobacco Company, and Thomas E. Sandefur, Jr., chairman of Brown and Williamson Tobacco Company, for their unshakable discovery, as testified to the U.S. Congress, that nicotine is not addictive.


Peace - Presented to the Taiwan National Parliament, for demonstrating that politicians gain more by punching, kicking and gouging each other than by waging war against other nations.

oh god these are hilarious and really does serve its purpose funny and then makes u think:D

for a list of all the people who have won these awards in their respective years and for what can be found in the flowing link
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Ig_Nobel_Prize_winners

story of someone elses life:day sixty seven

SIXty SEVen days..its bin sixty seven days since tht faithful nite..and now its 1Am and i was on my way home..if u can call the abandoned school a home ..the cold cruel ice started to numb me..not tht it made much differnce ..and he fog was freezing and the ground slowly started to freeze..there was no one out...67 days its bin since i saw flickr of a soul in me 67 days its bin since i cld breathe the air like how a free man breaths. .my GOAl is wat kept me going...it was the only reason i was still in the hunt ..i was like and adrenaline junkie..tryin to get my hands on some Epinephrine..its hard to live like this ....hOw dId it haPpen.wHy.?

white as snow

the struggles of 12th standard primarily jus sum upto to one single word jus one..
college.sucks dont it..
well it may not sum up everyhting..but in its essence..it does..i mean the only reason 12th is such a pain in the back side and on the neck(try getin tht bio text book of ours in to ur head ull know)
well is ultimately get in to college then maybe a job and then a decnet life..tho this maynot particulary coincide with my intrests..it is the general opinion..
anyway..the thing is college is jsu the next step..wat lies beyond is AS WHITE AS SNOW

bank of snake milk(sahil),dinu(dinesh) , and me rote somethin..we think in our funny little way tht .this is wat mite happen to us in say 10ish years time
this list consists of students frm the bio class..lets see wat happens
well first lets make some assumptions(everyone is happy and has a job)

• dinesh-buried in a pile of books,working on sum new theory....we think he's gonna be this professor
• krithika -modern generally happy,but under heavy psychiatric treatment
• abhinaya-doctor
• same applies to sameep and bala(hehe bala mite start bips:P)
• baradwaj-mechanical eng for sure..he will surely have a very normal life..he stil plays footie like a god
• shiva-math prof,
• swayambu-dunno but i think hell be fine..
• barat udaysuryan-defiantly move out of the country study somethin(astro scientific gibbersih with arts)come back to India and do sumthin super important
• aditya nair-aimless even after ten years,(neutral consensus)
• gilli-hardworking like his dad.some bio chemical stuff(still loves arguing)
• nari-eating beef,decent job.still imitating sagar???
• dhivya-no clue,none of us know her
• niru-hehe definetly married(a.v??or the girl he loves whatever married for sure)
• shrudi-journalist(she says)....also under heavy psych treatment for her insecurities
• ashna-awesome academics..but may not be interested in a carrier as such
• smithi-some entertaining job..lets hope she sticks
• shweta-social activist:P
• pooja-she'll study get awesome marks and then become a housewife
• sagar-psychopath..good paying job,luxury of prime importance,our prediction may get married many times between 22-29 mite get divorced or kill spouse..
• rajashree-blank
• prithvi-eng with some musical thing on the side
• dhanu-some happy happy joy joy job..hopefully gets paid..dunno watll happen..hope he fulfils his ambition(to lead a happy life)..random
• arijeet-:P no cahnce of normal life->he is benagali:P
• VASANTHY MAM-VICE PRINCIPLE,SPECKS,WHITE HAIR,STILL THE SAME AWESOME TEACHER SHE IS..SHE'LL REMEMBER US..AND MITE BECOME THE BIO HEAD OF CBSE(we prayin for u mam)
• some ppl for fun
• bishen ,bg->unless major circumstances like earth quake,death,tsunami,vrindha aunty interfering,they shall be married
• bishen-lawyer intern
• bg-wife of lawyer intern ans sum humanities course
• priya-still flinging arnd.playing to win,hard working ambitious,(fastest indian ..reached a hundred yet??)
• arun-dog eat dog life,advertising,still making decent music
• akshay-all tht food u eat is gonna get u ecoli or sumthin:P
• candy-something scientific(Aero)...still antisocial.hopefilly will find a girl (maybe hell open up to her??)..hehe still creativly destructive
• chubby-??
• manav-??????
• tariq-still doin some design stuff
• baba-advertising king:P..still awesome human being
• pati-will win atleast one pet show,pls join theatre some sane job
• pl-hehe will start fake jeans company(P.Lee)hehe ..some eng related life
• v.k-after shixth attemp ..hehe still attemptin iit(touchpeice)
• govind-doing extreamly well in life..vedantha guru
• hrushita-bruuey..hopfully becomes master cook...prob b.arch

ten years frm today..i wonder if ill ever know how my amtes have turned out??
the future definelty as white as snow

lickin stick'

mouth harp,lickin' stick HARMONICA i wanna learn this so bad..
i hope its not a phase..i really wanna learn this instrument
its so full of soull..melodious..
so trembly like ..so powerfull and jazzy bluesy
everything..i wanna learn

buddy??

as it seems frm the look of the recent posts..o jus seem content with ritin ...two lined posts...ahh well...it was a mood...but the thing is this post was ritten in a mood were the influx of testosterone was really high..i mean..there are somethings...tht a 16 yr old such as myself.....we can all dream cant we:D(in realtion with sex buddy)
...but the thing is there is no logical way u can get hurt in this way..at least if u think logically..i mean its just physical..so unless the "significant other"decids to castrate u ..u really arent much danger...
hurt ,pain,hate,,,they are emotionally realted...so why feell sumthin thts gonna let u down..wen the end cant be good...ive bin hurt...ive grown more detached each time..its hurts less...but then wats the point..i mean why go thru the whole thing if ur jus gonna get..detached... the thing is wen u are in a skl "realtionship" there really isnt any meaning to it...heck i think most relationships lack meaning..but the truth and this sucks...men atleast the hetrosexual ones
MEN like WOMEN..
and women are frm a different planet..

new

hehe im lovin the new look ...tahnks trqy for the banner..

sex buddy!!!

the coolest idea..i suppose...no commitments...jus fun...wonder!!!

nicest guy!!

being nice doesnt get u anyware...
to understand my highly irritable mood right now...is not understandable...i dont like this..i dont feel like talkin...and i have to many negative thots..i need to get rid of them dhananjai hari: i can feel an antisocial mood comin on for me
sona ranjit: ayoo
dhananjai hari:
sona ranjit: why?
dhananjai hari: ive bin expectin him
sona ranjit: so whts gonna hapen?
dhananjai hari: its abt time i think
sona ranjit: why?
dhananjai hari: dunno each one is different
sona ranjit: why does he have to come?
sona ranjit: why this time?
dhananjai hari: i treat them all as unique individuals
dhananjai hari: dunno ..
dhananjai hari: it feels right i hope it hits me soon
dhananjai hari: and get ova with it.. i suppose
sona ranjit: hmmm
sona ranjit: whats he gonna do to ya?
sona ranjit: I'm very apprehensive of these guys
dhananjai hari: u make them sound evil..
sona ranjit: like I'm kunjum scared of the angry furious dhanu
dhananjai hari: hehe i ve lost so many capabilities
dhananjai hari: ,,,havnt bin angry in a long
dhananjai hari: time
dhananjai hari: cried no..not since germany lost the world cupin 2002
sona ranjit: whoaaaa
dhananjai hari: ive become tolerent ,... more understandin
sona ranjit: dhanuuuu
dhananjai hari: and very passive toward agression
sona ranjit: I'm impressed
dhananjai hari: maybe too passive for my likin
sona ranjit: yeah..isn't it kunjam unnatural?
dhananjai hari: what
dhananjai hari: ???
dhananjai hari: which..
sona ranjit: not having any negative emotions?
sona ranjit: I'm ur so happy
dhananjai hari: hehe im nearly close to being the most perfect human being on earth(hehe thts
sona ranjit: i mean*
dhananjai hari: cocky me talkin)
dhananjai hari: im not always happy...
dhananjai hari: jus...not always sad
sona ranjit: yeah,but never angry???
sona ranjit: or really sad?
dhananjai hari: ya weird ive bin angry....ive hit a fellow human being in the past 2 yrs...but not really intentionaly jus lost it tht day
sona ranjit: hahaha,the scales of ur emotions are tilted to the happy emotions!
dhananjai hari: ive bin relaly sad....jus didnt last for too long...dont let it last for too long rather..
dhananjai hari:
sona ranjit: =)
dhananjai hari: i think happy...most of the time..i think..
dhananjai hari: so,...wen i get down..i always have jueey!!
sona ranjit: hehe
dhananjai hari: THE ONLY THING THT LOVES ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE IT
sona ranjit: juuuey forever
sona ranjit: oh comon,lotsa ppl probably love you as much as u love them
dhananjai hari: yay
dhananjai hari: i dont love anyone
dhananjai hari: i wish i did..cld..will..
dhananjai hari: .i hope soon tho..i really want to feel it

sona ranjit: ahh don't worry
sona ranjit: will happen
sona ranjit: u've got lots of love to give
sona ranjit: someone's gonna come along
dhananjai hari: hmmmf
dhananjai hari: i like satanism
dhananjai hari: i have to become a part of it..
dhananjai hari: dunno how..
dhananjai hari: i went to their web site
sona ranjit: change of suuuuubjectttt*sing song voice*
sona ranjit: lol,like it that much?????
dhananjai hari: yes...
dhananjai hari: u have to take a test an all..cos theyw ant only distinguished..i mean suited individuals
dhananjai hari: who believe in the policies
sona ranjit: hahahahaha
sona ranjit: choos choosy
dhananjai hari: ..ya...
dhananjai hari: but its kk1!!i like their principles...i jus follow them...witout...
dhananjai hari: before i knew it..
dhananjai hari: so this is like jus a conformation
sona ranjit: so cool
sona ranjit: I'm so happy my test led u to ur true religion
dhananjai hari: hehe..yay
sona ranjit: u really are quite suited to it
sona ranjit: funny nah
dhananjai hari: why thank u!!
sona ranjit: THE ULTIMATE GOOD GUY IS LED TO SATANISM

dhananjai hari: hehe nice one
sona ranjit: actually it just sounds scary
sona ranjit: satanism i mean
dhananjai hari: ya...has nothin to do with him tho..
dhananjai hari: anton levey jus likes the word i suppose
sona ranjit: hehe*hug* ur one of the nicest peple i know
dhananjai hari: dunno wat to say to tht
sona ranjit: ah u dont have to say anything chil
sona ranjit: d
dhananjai hari: k!!
sona ranjit: hehe
dhananjai hari: im off!!!
sona ranjit: toodles


HMM OKAY IM EDITING THIS ON THE 19th OF NOVEMBER
thing is tht day when i posted this i was in a really bad mood...im not anymore and i suppose...i shld say somethin...i really do love being the nicest guy...for sum odd reason..it gives me happiness..the tthing is tht day..i thot wats the point..i reallly felt cheated..tht day...but then i suppose good things happen to ppl ..and bad things...i jus really didnt no wat was happenin..and tht convo really doesnt say much...but it was somethin....i really really love beig a nice guy...and im sure some day itll get me some were...jus not on tht day:D